Aha

The nurse opened the lobby door after that eternity of twenty minutes, "Kyle, the doctor will see you now." Hooray for me, I was called to the podium. I followed her back to the lair in which I would wait again for an eternity, but what's the rush to find out my illness? After she performed the check-me-up tasks she reassured me, "The doctor will be with you in a few minutes." In my mind I'm thinking "whatever" but yet I utter, "Thank you, I appreciate it." These offices always have that too-clean feel to them, everything is in perfect order and alignment, everything is new and shiny, but for some reason the damn magazines are three months back issue. The oversized wood door props open and Doctor Klines strolls in, "Kyle, how are ya?" His overpowering hand shake always intimidates me. 

"I've been feeling fairly uneven lately Doctor," I began my empathy oration, "I just have days where I don't feel well and others where I feel fine, and I tend to be moody, it just happened over the past year or so since my parents split up." 

"Mmhmm, well Kyle, I've studied your exams and it appears you have a defect in your cerebellum which is causing your thoughts to strain." 

"How could this happen, I haven't changed anything?"

"It's a side effect of smoking, your parent's smoke?

"Well, yea my dad had been, that's probably what caused this," I raised my voice and turned pale, "That no good bastard, I always despised his habits, I'm glad my mom broke up with that scumbag!"

"Whoa whoa Kyle Kyle, it's okay buddy, settle down."

"Why should I settle down? Huh! I gotta go doc, thanks for the help!" I stormed out of the office and ran to my car and it hit me like a ton of bricks that I deeply hated my father. Not just because of the condition he inflicted on me, but because of his lack of caring for me or ever being their when it mattered. I drove home to my mother and told her the news, her eyes swelled up with tears and she grasped me into her chest. She squealed, "Kyle, I'll always love you, and I'm sorry you've had to grow up with that joke of a father."

"I love you too mom."

I may have lost part of my brain function, but the sacrifice is well worth my mom's love.